a short post on tecbc…
blah tired stress crazy wah…
i think i went into tecbc this year a little bit… stressed… compared to last year i was just a little more independent in terms of getting papers and whatevers and trying to organize stuff. making the booklets and the shirts wasn’t sweatshopish last minute insanity, i was definitely more rested going to tecbc… but kinda mentally spent trying to get things together. for a good portion of may, tecbc was like a task to get done and less a joy to do. the part of me that was glad that this is my 2nd and last year chairing was very very much on the top surface of my thoughts…
the beauty…
being caught up in college ministry most of the year, i forget what its like being in youth ministry and seeing the plain raw purity of kids i see at tecbc every year. people who look at the world with less jaded eyes than mine. prayer and worship is without the unnecessary flair and is unmistakably genuine. watching the youth enjoy worship even if its not that “good” in a musical and flowing sense was very beautiful and seeing them pray together or have their quiet times around the lake… its nice.
the future…
so im definitely not chairing next year… the search for the next chair is on. but i’m learned a lot about myself doing this stuff the last two years. i learned im the best announcement giver… ever. i learned more about my shortcomings and weaknesses; usually i stick to what i know and do well and try to do them as well as i can. being “forced” to do stuff i dont have natural gifts in made me appreciate those who do have those gifts a lot more. not chairing next year but i should still be involved. looking forward to the facebook and strings of messages and friend requests now…